The tests I put you through

I make up rules that I expect you to follow, but I have no idea why I’m creating them. Maybe I’m adopting them? From who? For why?

I’m judging you by these rules. I’m saying to myself that if you don’t answer my text in a certain way or amount of time then “OMG HOW COULD HE”. 

Why am I jumping to these conclusions? These assumptions? These judgements? These cancellations of you.

Why?

Do I keep the rules? I feel better when I detach from the voices of cancellation and of hatred.

Slaughter lexicon, amirite?

In-person is different than texting. Why does a person how to be a perfect texting buddy. A digital pen pal? What if they are a perfect texter and a lame IRL friend?

Why am I expecting that he needs to act a certain arbitrary way that I made up? (Or inherited)

I really didn’t put effort into creating these “expectations”, so why do I still have them?